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I cut because of you
And yes
I felt alive
Versus the corpse I felt like in your presence
It was heaven compared to the poisonous words you would spew
I was silenced
Ignored
Blamed
And the blade was judgeless
Present
And honest
You hurt
Then apologized for it later
Then do the same thing again
The blade was repetitive but that was expected
It never disappointed
Because when you disappointed
I just returned to my reliable blade
The shining silver
Wanting me
Welcoming me
Always ready
Sharp and respectful
Our contact melded
Silver and red
Not once or twice
But as many times as I desired
Finally
I was in control to make all the decisions
Where and when
And the blade was always compliant
Purely accommodating
Never cross with me
The blade understood my sensitive nature
We took it slow
Let me warm up to it
And I returned the favor
With a lovely, rich, blushing rouge
It was truly love at first cut